Sunday, April 23, 2006
Yup, finally I start blogging. I always wanted to start it during my days in Finland but somehow I didn’t manage or not motivate enough. But now I finally own it and feeling juz like a small little kid with a brand new toy. However here, in this lonely room starting his first blog with fury in his heart.
Yeah, as usual quarrel with my parent over some small little things. If you ask me, I never really like them. Why? Well, from young, they don’t take care of me. My only beloved are my granny and my grandpa. I don’t live my parent since young and only juz a few years back. Communication breakdown often and also they dun understand me well and only want me to obey. I am big enough to think for myself. Stress… I always wanted to have a close friend to talk to. However I am not open to one (hopefully I can find the special one and someone to be beside me and console me when I need, lol…fathope). I think the blogging come just the right time. Haha…
Hmm… I have a beautiful sister with guys going crazy for her. Dunno what so unique abt her? After a few relationships I have and also having rejected a few gals, I think I am now afraid to take a step out again. The feeling of hurt is so pain. Stress again… I never think I am gorgeous or pleasant, in fact I think I have AP (attitude problem). Whoever call me or msg me juz now, I apologize for it. Normally I wish to be alone when I not in the mood and moreover I dun share with people. Luckily still have people like me. Maybe since primary school till now I still kiddy and cheeky, and mischievous all the time. In this world, if you want to make frenz with anyone, you need to accept whatever his behaviors.
I think I’m really very secretive and sensitive type of person. How many people really understand me? I am not sure abt that too… Yup, it’s very early now @ 1.16am on my computer clock playing kiss goodbye in my winamp. Feeling quite down and depress with all the argument with dad in my head. Sigh… I still dun think it is my fault… seriously! Forget it.
What’s life? Life is simple; you just die in the end. (O_O)
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